As many of you know, I have been studying with the Healing the Light Body School
with the Four Winds Society for over 4 years. As part of this teaching, I have travelled to Peru several times. While I was in the
Amazon jungle on a recent trip to Peru, I received direct instruction from the Q’uero shamans that it is time to step out as
a shamanic practitioner. As part of my journey in Peru I did ayahuasca under the stars and moon of a beautiful night sky.
Ayahuasca is psychoactive brew made in part from this vine, whose active ingredient is harmine, which allows one to be guided
beyond the realms of death. Aya is the Quechua (native language of the Q’uero people, descendants of the ancient Incans)
word for death. Huasca is rope or vine. Ayahuasca is a sacred medicine of the jungle shaman, has been used for ritual and
visionary purposes since prehistory, and it is said that one experiences death and rebirth with it. The magic of Ayahuasca
rests in its ability to find, focus, diagnose and heal the causes of one's personal problems or illness as well as the symptoms.
The cleansing and healing is deep, to the core, and is therefore likely to have a lasting, positive effect on the person taking
it. To me, it is plant spirit medicine at its best.
During my first ayahuasca experience I had visions of hard plastic-looking brightly colored geometric shapes (especially
triangles) and designs swirling and floating all around me. They looked like pegboards because they had many beads of color close
to each other all over the shapes. They made me rather dizzy and yucky feeling from their constant movement. Then some strange
looking people appeared. One looked like a New Orleans jazz musician in a dark suit and fedora-like hat. Another, a woman, had
long stiff-looking bright red clothing. None of them felt dark or threatening and they were all motioning and calling to me to
“Come this way….” I had no idea what this meant and was a little miffed that I was not receiving a death and
rebirth right there on the spot. It started to gently rain and I felt cleansed and purified from the experience. As many of you
know, I use water in my work as a tool for cleansing, purifying, and as a carrier of intent and energy especially from sacred sites
around the world. So it seemed appropriate to me that it would rain providing water for these purposes. Later, I remarked to others
who were also doing ayahuasca how much I enjoyed the refreshing gentle rain. Everyone looked questioningly at each other and I was
informed that it had not rained. But I could feel it; it was real to me!!
I also saw a film or grid of energy above me when I opened my eyes. It looked like snake skin but felt very protective like a shield
keeping me safe and secure. I remember seeing what I sensed as snake skin during a previous ceremony with the Four Winds Society when I
was gifted the bands of power during one of the Munay Ki Rites while studying the direction of the South. The snake skin looked like the
gemstone Malachite with swirling patterns, only beige and brown in color. It kept moving and getting compressed and then uncompressed.
The snake skin grid which appeared during the ayahuasca ceremony was white and I could see the stars and sky through it. The energy felt
the same. In the Incan tradition the winds or direction of the South are represented by the archetype of the serpent, Sachamama, who
travels across the Earth with her belly to the Earth, receiving the energy of the Earth, teaching us to shed our past as she sheds her skin.
Serpent is the life force of union and creation. A reminder to me to shed old stories and to create new creations.
Several days later I visited the Incan ruins near Pisac, the Temple of the Falcon, where I received the rites of the Starkeepers from a
shaman named Don Pasqual. This rite anchors you safely to the time after the great change that is said will occur on or around the year 2012
and you acquire stewardship of the time to come and all future generations. Your physical body begins to evolve into that of Homo Luminous
(people who will be informed from their innate luminosity and luminous architecture), the aging process is slowed down, and you become
resistant to diseases to which you were once vulnerable. You begin to live and process the events that occur in your life at the level of
As Don Pasqual administered my rites I flashed back on my ayahuasca journey days before in the Amazon. Don Pasqual was wearing the
traditional beaded hat and poncho typically worn by the Q’uero shamans. They are brightly colored and have triangles of beadwork all
over them. His poncho also had a pattern of triangles. I realized that this is what I had seen while doing the ayahuasca! The shamans were
inviting me into their world, encouraging me to “come this way.” Many of the Peruvian women wear hats introduced by Europeans to
the men of Peru. The men didn’t like them, but the women did. This was the fedora-like hat that I had seen. And ponchos are usually
red and appear as stiff-looking.
So, I had my transformation after all! I received confirmation that it is time to shed the past unwillingness to step fully into the role of
shaman and that it is time to recognize that we all need support and help as we evolve from Homo Sapiens to Homo Luminous.
Following this direction, I am now available to administer despachos to individuals or to groups.
A despacho is a ceremonial offering composed of a wide variety of items, each with its own symbolic meaning. The items are intricately
arranged on white paper, blessed by the shaman performing the ceremony, bundled up and burned, buried, or sunk in a lake or other body of
water. Despachos feed our connections to the sacred and can have many purposes. There are several types of despachos that can be performed
by a shaman.
The ayni despacho is a way of establishing reciprocity, right relationship, balance and harmony with the Universe. If you give you will
receive and if you receive you must give back. It is an honoring of the cycle of abundance and gratitude. This despacho brings many blessings
and can be done for specific purposes such as creating harmony, good will, munay (love, respect), marriage, etc. This is an excellent way to
promote abundance in a business endeavor or increase co-operation on projects. The beginning of a year is an excellent time to do an ayni
The aya despacho or the death despacho is performed to break connections or to soothe the transition from one situation to another. It is
used after divorce, ending of a relationship, ending of a job or career, loss of a loved one, etc. The ending of the year is an excellent time
to do an aya despacho.
The cuti despacho is used to release sorcery against a person. If someone is psychically attacking you or you are feeling immersed in hucha
(heavy energy) that connection is released by the cuti despacho. This is only used in rare circumstances and must be done carefully.
“Experiencing a despacho was a very freeing experience. I felt like a huge weight was lifted from me as I was able to let go of
past pains, which allowed me to move forward to the next stage of my life. I recommend a despacho for anyone who has been through or is going
through a divorce, loss from a bad relationship or a person who has lost his job.
I also recommend cord cuttings in conjunction with a despacho. The damaging connections with people from my past who were draining me
energetically were cut. This allowed me to have a clean start and to be open to new beginnings!”
Kevin Alexander, following both an aya despacho and an ayni despacho
“Vickie provided a wonderful experience for those of us who were fortunate enough to attend the despacho. She gave us clear
instructions and explained the process in great detail. It helped me to truly understand the culture and everyone to relate to the ceremony.
Every contribution was valued. Each person was made to feel a special part of the despacho. I feel all of our offerings, prayers, and blessings
were truly received by God and the Divine. Many expressed a sense of release and renewal as the ceremony concluded. I personally feel blessed to have attended. Vickie is a gift to our community.”
Anonymous after attending a group ayni despacho
“I enjoyed the experience with the group! I thank you and spirit for allowing me to be part of it. I have felt more peaceful and
connected since the despacho and have already received blessings. I feel the best part of the experience was the feeling of being able to give
back to mother earth, something I see people doing more in groups and more often. We send energy to so many people and situations. I know we
need to send what we can to heal the trauma mother earth has been going through. And to all the creatures who are being affected by the floods,
droughts, storms, earthquakes and mans’ poisoning of land, sea, and air. This ceremony helped me feel like there was something I could
do to help other than what I try to do every day to help not harm the earth. Thank you so much. In love and light,”
Stephanie after attending a group ayni despacho
“It was an honor and a special gift to be a part of the despacho ceremony! In my many years of practicing shamanism I have learned
that in giving thanks for our many blessings, we receive them many times over. Since the despacho I have looked at some
of the different ways that I could give thanks to mother earth and the animals, and other things in my life. Thank you for bringing this
to my attention at this time in my life.”
"Give thanks for unknown blessings already on their way."
Native American Saying
Sylvia after attending a group ayni despacho
“I initially came with only the intent of experiencing a new ceremony on a spiritual path which I am only vaguely familiar.
Since blessings were the purpose of the ceremony my intent for the despacho was blessings of Love in strong relationships. I found the
despacho a moving ceremony! Thank you!
In Peace & Beauty & Love,"
Dana after attending a group ayni despacho
“After the ceremony thought for sure I would have natives dancing and drumming thru my dreams, they were a no show but….
As you remember, I told you about my face warming up and feeling a bit sunburned the next morning. Now, whenever I pray or do other spiritual
work the same two spots warm back up. It is a very pleasant and contented feeling. I see it as a confirmation that there was something
powerful going on that night.”
Blessings, Joyce after attending a group ayni despacho
“During the burning of the despacho, I started experiencing some sharp pain in my right side, so I sat down in the chair next to
me. The pain passed once the fire died down. The next day, I felt very light and clear and grounded. More than I have felt in awhile. And
I slept very well.
Thank you again for everything. You are greatly loved and appreciated! Have a blessed day!”
Donna after attending a group ayni despacho
The investment for the despacho is $60. If there is more than one person attending the cost will be lower depending on the number